Here I am, feeling a bit anxious, as my expectations were far greater than reality. What this boils down to is, being too hard on myself…one of my issues that I’m working on. I put myself in a situation that I thought I would excel from the starting gate..,reality is far different! Honestly, my speaking French will not happen in 2 weeks time…my brain is just trying to remember some of the conjugations/definitions from years ago. Let me repeat this….years ago and with time…my memory has diminished a bit, but, that being said, I shall continue on with trying…and I have to accept it!
The question was posed, “why am I taking a course in speaking French??” It seemed my answer, ” for my own pleasure”, was the only one presented in that fashion. Among the many other students from all over Europe, of various ages, most were there to communicate, further enhancing commerce. Most had been speaking French for years. My friends, stateside, can testify that I would throw out a word or two in French during some random conversation….we’d giggle or they would roll their eyes, and then we would move on! So, what was I thinking??? I guess I wasn’t! I will give myself a gold star (I always like getting those!) for trying. I vow that I will continue, as I think the practice of learning a foreign language helps to keep this brain of mine active. Sudoku will not suffice each morning in challenging my brain to move forward!! (I still enjoy the morning puzzle ritual…I’ll admit).
I’m into my second and final week, deciding I’ve had enough for now. The process has created a quieter, more reserved Lisa, just because of my lack of quick synapses in creating thought to spoken word. Pretty unacceptable in my book…immersion is an honorable attempt, but the resulting angst is not part of my plan….just exactly what it is…I’m still working on that….but at least I know what it isn’t. I guess I also had ulterior motives when I enrolled in this class. It was to meet like-minded individuals that maybe found themselves needing similar contact in a foreign place, with English as the starting point…nope, that didn’t happen. So, on to plan B as the saying goes. I’ll let you know what that is when I figure it out! I will complete my course as I had planned and I’m better off having taken it. Another chapter to add to my adventure.
Oh, I have to thank those friends who have checked in as I haven’t been posting blogs as often as I had hoped. I will try to keep the information and descriptions current, but no pressure! Au revoir for now…..