1:24 A.M.

Here I am at 1:24 in the morning – I’m awake and can’t seem to get the monkey brain to quiet down with all that l’m creating. I woke up with the phrase “like a grain of sand” with toujours (always, en Francais) thrown into the mix. So, now I’m trying to decipher/interpret what it means and why did it wake me up!

First, I realize I forgot to take my Xanax at bedtime. I haven’t had the need prior to recently, but now it seems I wake due to something of utmost importance followed by difficulty returning to my slumber. I need to write down these critical items on my list (one of many) that I need to remember in preparation for my upcoming adventure. I have quite a few pads of legal-sized paper containing those lists. I’m pretty organized, or perhaps it’s a figment of my imagination, but I’m going with in -trying to stay sane.

Tonight, it’s different. This phrase, “like a grain of sand” and toujours – what is the reason, here and now. Let’s break it down…..

All that I’m experiencing is just “a grain of sand” of importance – yet it is. It is my world yet in the scheme of things, it’s not that immense. I guess it pulls me back to the once infamous phrase, ” don’t sweat the small stuff because it is all small stuff”. Take it for what it is, but move on to more when it comes to the big picture. Oh, this idiom is playing out tonight/this morning. If I discover something similar en Francais, I’ll let you know.

All my preparations are important, but it’s just a small component of the whole picture ahead. Right now I’m pondering my life, but I’m just a small speck in the world of humanity, a small speck in the whole of the universe – OMG – just a grain of sand “so-to-speak”‘ keeping it all in perspective. Each grain is important to the whole.

So, now you’ve got a taste of what is brewing in my head – all in the spirit of adventure. I am hoping it will all calm down once I’ve boarded that plane to Marseilles. But then again, these random thoughts just might occur more frequently. Oh, heaven help us!